Hidden.

Prompt: The thing I am most scared about people finding out about me is...

that I am, on the inside, a frightened and shy little girl looking for protection.

That I fight with myself about the urge to leave self-inflicted scars on my skin.

That I hold my family closer than anything - but I am too afraid to really show them my hurt.

That I crave alone time but yearn for affection.

That all I want is my mommy and daddy.

That I have no vision for my life.

That I struggle to decide if everything or nothing matters.

That my thoughts are morbid.

That I will never get over P.

That I don't know who I am - only who I used to be.

That finances/money suffocate me.

That I've lost my ability to be spontaneous.

That I desire the boundless support that I always give.

That I worry I might never be fulfilled.

That I don't know where I belong.

That I don't feel connected anymore.

That I will be grieving my grandmother forever.

That I feel like a shell.

That I am faking it to "make it".

Make it? To what?

I'm afraid that I do not know.

07/02/2023